Know My Heart

Hope Jesus will feel less pain tonight.
Since tomorrow are Good Friday.
Love You Jesus.

Last night i had a dream.
I sleep around at 11pm.
Went to bed tired after working out my own schedule.
The schedule for whole month.
Then no idea what time i start to had this dream.
This dream was so so so Real.
I was too in it. I Don't Even Know it just a dream.
Nothing in there seem like a dream.
Just So Real :<
I was in a big house. Big wealthy and super rich house.
There ware a party going on.
Like the USA living life at night. Party party party.
It was a rich people party.
I was one of the people in the house.
I don't know what am i doing in there.
But i can feel myself enjoy the party.
I am bit of drunk. But i can't see myself drinking any alcohol.
I just feel it so real...
I feel like am in the party from 7pm till late night 1am.
Most people already pass out and some hang over.
Then someone rang the bell.
One of Bodyguard open the door.
The bodyguard wearing coat.
Bodyguard walked toward the big truck outside the house.
There was someone walked down from the big truck.
He pulled out the handgun and shoot the bodyguard to death.
I was so panic and shock.... What the Hell! He kill the bodyguard.
Then few three peoples, they are armed with big gun. Those type of gun are the gun which army using M18. They look a bit like swat. Cover with night vision and blue vest.
Then i start to think is this rich people doing something related to criminal?
Until heavy weapon swat people come and ambush.
I rush to the room. Open the cupboard and pull out 3 big guns and stack of bullets.
I open fire at them because i think they will kill me too like how they kill the bodyguard.
I felt so real in there that i going to die soon?
We had a heavy gun fight in the house. Most of the people in the house were death
I just felt i will die somehow cause i just a normal person and i did not done anything wrong.
What i gonna said is.... This is so real that i felt i will die from the gun fight somehow.
I felt so regret and scare to die because i have few thing not yet complete or done.
When people going to die at last moment,
What they think...
Are REAL.....
What their feeling are....
Are REAL.....
What they say.....
Are REAL.....
No one will think of bad thing
when they soon will die....
No one will lie
when they soon will die....
This is because there Will Be No Second Chance After This....
I hate this dream so much because it just so real that i going to die soon.
I feel regret because i know somehow i start to like her... i not yet tell her
how i feel about her... I still don't know the outcome.
I so scare to die because i still wanna make her happy when she is sad.
I scare that i will never be able to see her anymore.
I scare i cannot see my family anymore.
I was so sad because i going to die at this young age.
Those who love me will be very sad especially my mother and sister.
I hate this the feeling when u are going to leave this world...
When i awake from the dream. I found out there was a tear on my face
drop from my eye... i was actually crying in this dream.
I just can't believe i cry again for scare to die.
I was awake when i know myself deep in my heart
What i always wanna do
what i always wish for
what i always chasing for
know to love everyone while i still have them.
Let me be more reliable to everyone with my real kindness.
I now know how Jesus feel when the He almost return to Heaven with the God.
Even He know He gonna leave the World but He still caring for the
other 2 prisoners beside Him..
Today is the day Jesus suffer all the painsss for all of us.
I hope he don't hurt so much anymore after so many years.
Tomorrow is Good Friday.
Hope He will Blessing us as we always blessing for everyone.
Love will grow at anytime and anywhere.
Love is the best cure in the world.
Thank You from deep of my Heart.